The God of my Emotions 💜

Heyyyyyy 😁😊

For the past few days, it has seemed like I hit a creative block

Okay, well……. Not a creative block per say 😅

Let’s just say I have been procrastinating for a long while…. till now. My apologies 😅🤧

Sooooo………… Here we go 😊

This year has been a real rollercoaster (Don’t worry; this isn’t my end-of-year post 😅)

I experienced a lot and learnt (and am still learning) a lot from those experiences

I am learning to love more;

I am learning to love people all over again

And I am learning to love myself as well

Most importantly,

I have learnt to love and appreciate God more 💖

And if there is one thing I love most about this our Father in Heaven, it is His Consistency 💜

I love the fact that He doesn’t change

I love the fact that though people, circumstances, environments, e.t.c. may change, He doesn’t 

There were times when I felt down, and I felt misunderstood and confused, and running to people who I considered my “safe space” wasn’t the best 

Either due to the fact that they were busy, they didn’t understand, the responses I got felt like condemnation, or so on….

It was a lot 😅

And there were times that I literally wanted to run and hide away from the world, from people, from society….. and I just wanted to be alone…..

But one beautiful thing that still blows me away till now,

He is there

He was and is my shoulder to cry on 

He was and is my shoulder to lean on when I feel tired and misunderstood 

And what I still love about Him is how He doesn’t misunderstand me 

He always understands 💜

I have been told a lot this year to learn to control my emotions…. Which hurt because I only expose that side of myself to people I trust 

Yeah. I have trust issues 😅

And you may not know much about me when you meet me personally 😅 for a longgggggggg while, or till I open up at least 🙂

But you know what?

God has and will always be my safe space

There was something I said in my previous post that I want to correct….

This blog is not my safe space

GOD IS MY SAFE SPACE 💖

And He will always be my safe space 

He is the One I can run to when I feel tired and overwhelmed; 

The One who is always there to encourage me with His Word, and tell me that He is rooting for me 24/7, NO MATTER WHAT

He is the One who, no matter how annoying or emotional I may get 😂😂😂, is always there to listen to me rant 

My Father dey try abeg 😂😂😂🥰😩💜

But He never changes 💜

And I love that about Him

I can get very emotional 

Like very very emotional 

And I struggle to be vulnerable with Him more often than not

Most times when I rant, I don’t cry, I fuss and I get angry 😂😂😂😅 (I’m still learning how to cry to Him 😊 Still learning 💜)

But He is always there,

Not judging me,

Not condemning me,

Not forcing or rushing me to get to a place, emotionally or psychologically, that I am not 

He is ever patient and EVER LOVING 💖

He allows me to feel

I can feel when I’m with Him

This year made me realize that not everyone is meant to have access to that part of me; I’m not meant to be vulnerable with everybody, either because they may take advantage of me, or they would misunderstand me (which is where Wisdom comes in), or….. whatever

I’m just really glad and grateful to God that I have Him 💜 I am His, and He is mine 💖

My One and First True Love ❤️‍🔥

My Father and Keeper

My Saviour, Redeemer and the One who loves me and will always love me UNCONDITIONALLY, flaws and all 💜

And even though I’m not perfect (and I know He is helping me work towards it), and I can be a handful a lot of times 😅 I know He will never leave me 

He will never get fed up

He will never get tired of me

He is there to correct and scold when necessary

He is working on me

Each day, One step at a time ✝️

And most importantly 

Through it all,

He loves me and accepts me for who I am

And He shows me to embrace my emotions….

Not shun or despise them, as He created me an emotional being; a human who feels and has compassion; 

But who is also not lead by them, allowing them cloud my decisions or judgment, or allowing them stop me from doing what I am meant to or have to do, but bringing and placing them at His Feet and allowing Him control and allow them find the right expression(s) in me

And because He will never change, I can trust Him ❤️‍🔥

I will ALWAYS love Him 

And He will continue to help me to trust Him 

And He will always and forever be….

The God of my Emotions 💜